I love my ex tats gay i know but soo does my bff?

well i think i love my ex again not his personality because hes an but his look i no thats pretty shallow and i want to be with him . we can never talk anymore. hes stares at me evverywhere he sees me he also ims me like everytime he sees me and hes the one who dumbed me idkkk. because he heard i was going to dump witch was not true. soo now myy best friend is in totaly love with him and she wants to be with and i do also. he thinks shes annoyin and young for him. she only 3 years younger then him. so anywayz i want to tell her i want him but she also wants him and i dont want to break her heart because shes my best friend and i love her to i dont know y is life soo complicated?