Paganism and Catholicism?

I like both faiths I like Paganism because it is fun and the gods help me but it is very lonely and I have to practise behind my mothers back. I like catholicism because it has huge churches and I can go to m every week so I feel like I am part of community but I feel like my spirit is hollow and christ as my saviour dosnt make sense as a phrophet sure but not as god. so how do I choose?